Something always gets in the way, doesn’t it? Life does that. Life not only uh…finds a way, but it also gets in the way too. It’s easy to fall out of step when you’re on a roll. Easy for a bad day to keep you from getting up and doing what you need to. Easy for that day to snowball.
And most especially when you only have yourself to be accountable to.
It’s easy to make excuses when the bad days keep you off your path. “Oh, well this week was just shitty. Next week will be better.” “It’s okay that I didn’t get that done, because I was feeling awful.” Really, it is okay. For the most part. No one keeps a winning streak forever. It’s just not possible. And usually the crappy moments end up being the best teachers.
What makes those moments truly awful is when they tempt you to give up. When you trip and decide to give in and wallow in your own crapulence (in some cases very literally). That little bit of hopelessness leaves its mark. You think, “Maybe this really isn’t what I should be doing.” “What if I never make this all work?” Sometimes you even believe it for awhile. And sometimes you fall for that completely and genuinely fail.
Sometimes you don’t.
Sometimes you hear that voice telling you to pack it in and give up. It catches you off guard and you follow it for a moment, but then that other voice is still there. The voice that got you started. That voice that keeps you from sleeping at night because you have so many good ideas and you’re just so damn excited to keep trying. That voice that tells you that something completely random might just be worth telling a story about.
These voices can trade blows for a long time, one gaining the advantage over the other in a seesaw of mental horseshit. Trick is to find the balance. Believe you’ll build, but be ready to accept defeat. It will come, but you’re still full of those good ideas. Pull another out of the bag and get on with it.
I’ll say more later.